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Thoughts of "Could've": an odd, spur of the moment journal entry
Posted by steve7699, May 3, 2011. 4336 views. ID = 4587

Thoughts of "Could've"

Posted by steve7699, May 3, 2011. 4336 views. ID = 4587
This post was written in 28 minutes.
This post has been awarded 56 stars by 14 readers.

"We could've had it all" plays behind me as I write (though I should be working). A new song, played often, but at the same time, not often enough. Something about it resonates with me. Not sure what, but I think it's the simple fact that it's true.

The one thing that bothers me is the past tense of "could've". That's where regret lives, like mold, in humid darkness. It seems that so many of us give up at that stage. We "could've" done it, made it better, fixed it, won it, on and on go the possibilities. What's even more depressing is it's true. There's always something I "could've" done better or differently or just tried. I "could've" had more than I do.

But, what if it's not as depressing as I think? What if there's something I'm not seeing? Or more likely, something I'm not hearing? Just because things "could've" been different than they currently are, doesn't mean they should be. Maybe things aren't as bad right now, even though it certainly seems that way. What if I'm wrong?

I'm so tired. All the time. But, that doesn't mean I stop, or even want to. (Though, a rest now and again would be more than welcome.) I make so many mistakes on a daily basis that it blows my mind I'm even still alive. Or still married. Or even married at all. It's times like this, thankfully, that something dawns on me. I do have it all. It doesn't matter right now what I "could've" had. It matters what I do have, and what I do with it today and tomorrow and the days after that.

Lord knows, I don't want my daughters asking, or wondering, what they "could've" had. Or my wife. I want them thinking what they do have, and being thankful for it. And wondering what we can do to make things even better. Then, actually doing it.


Which, of course, makes "could've" obsolete. At that point, it will be what we have. And enjoying it. All of it.

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Comments


Douglas
May 3, 2011
This could've been a good piece of writing...

Oh, wait...it IS a good piece of writing.

Very thought provoking, Steve. I'm adding this to the featured gallery. :)
   ~Posted by Douglas, May 3, 2011

Scribbler
May 13, 2011
Wise words indeed.
   ~Posted by Scribbler, May 13, 2011

southgateharper
Aug 10, 2011
I think I enjoyed this piece more than anything I've read in the last month. It's been a dreary month of news with all sorts of problems in the world. I think your thoughts have helped me ground myself a little bit for the next while. Time to get a grip and be thankful for the here and now! Thanks for sharing this piece of writing.
   ~Posted by southgateharper, Aug 10, 2011

MissAnnie
Aug 22, 2011
"I'm so tired. All the time. But, that doesn't mean I stop, or even want to. (Though, a rest now and again would be more than welcome.) "

I feel like that sometimes. Great piece!
   ~Posted by MissAnnie, Aug 22, 2011



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